amenities

solitude even in the dwelling that has become my life

i have many things that anyone in my situation would want
more than someone in my position could afford ; but yet i am still discontented
i never go without
my refrigerator is complete with nutrients to satisfy any mans hunger
my closet is comfortably adjusted to my lifestlye
and my computer receives the best firewall protection that can be provided
so wherein is the underlying cause of my anguish
my phone bill has never missed a payment
public tansportation is the enemy now that i have my own set of wheels
the plush vera wang mattress conforms to my back as i sleep
and the velvety blanket comoforts me in the cold
this personal collection has now become my life
my child shall never have to want for anything ; she will sit in the lap of luxury with me .
so what am i missing ?

untitled

these desolate thoughts have become a burden to carry

i know not what to make of them ; and do not care to share them with others
they feed on darkeness and shadows ; and i so long to be part of the light
why must i be so contentious
my soul fights within itself ; fighting the malevolent person i have become
trying to find the innocence i once possesed
i yearn to be released ; my sanity depends on it
where i should be filled with happiness ; i am instead hollowed with misery
i pray that these things come to pass
for the sake of the health and safety of my daughter

My New Poems

As of late , my poems have been really depressing . The latest ones i am about to post are really downtrodden. But I seem to have brought myself out of my funk, just as long as no one messes with me. Stay tuned for updates!